id like think im an alternative badass girl who doesnt give a fuck and doesnt live by societys rules, but in reality i do all my homework and never back talk teachers and i say “please” and “thank you” and “sorry” way to much
I tied a red string around my finger
so I wouldn’t forget the important things:
to swallow my pills in the morning,
to call my mother every night,
to only tell my friends about
kissing the boy from History on Tuesday,
and not about the emptiness that rippled
through me on Tuesday night.
To turn in my paper on time,
12 font, double-spaced, Times New Roman,
no sarcasm, the professor hates that;
to talk to the girl in the library
with only sarcasm, she prefers that.
To stop taking medicine with vodka,
it only makes things worse;
to waltz into work
with bright eyes and no sign
that I thought of twenty-six
ways to die the night before.
And my red string grew tighter,
weighted with the routines and rules
that I had carved into stone,
and I never realized that I had forgotten
the most important thing:
what it meant to be alive.
You know on a day to day basis I can go on just fine without you but whenever I’m having a bad night and I’m lonely or sad, I really have to force myself not to give in and talk to you. Just going to remind myself how much of a cunt you are 😣
“You will fall in love with someone who’s cold and always seemingly pushing you away. When all is said and done, they will be forever known as the one person you couldn’t get to love you. Unfortunately, it will hurt and sting worse than the good ones, the ones that chopped up your meat for you and picked out an eyelash from your eye and were nice to your mother, because love often feels like a game we need to win.”—The People You Will Fall in Love With in Your 20s (Ryan O’Connell)
I’ve been laughing for three years over the fact that in ye old England you could chose to have ‘trial by cake’ in which you ate a piece of cake and if you choked you were guilty and if you didn’t you were innocent, and the only time it was used the guy on trial fucking choked and was executed for it